Drunk. Again.

To have a better feel of the vibes I'm feeling listen to the Safe Haven album Ruth B. just released. I am drunk. I am sad. I am devastatingly sad. It is really very hard to be this sad all the time. I have so much love in my heart. So much. But But But [...]

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Not One to Brag

Emotional vent blog, you've been warned. I have never been one to brag about getting good grades or assessments as they were called in my high school. I have always however been an excellent student. Growing up in a Montessori school, and then an essential school, we got personalized progress reports written by our teachers and mine [...]

Nuance

David Schneider (a guy quoted in one of the many academic articles I have been reading for my thesis) : "Simply knowing that a word can have many meanings, and simply knowing which are the many meanings a word can have, are not enough. What is necessary to know is which meanings apply when, and [...]

Looking 13ack

I made it through the craziest party weekend of the year without drinking. I however also did not participate in any social activities. But see, I don't find joy in throwing colored dust at people just to take pictures and post on facebook. I also don't have fun jumping up and down in an overheated [...]

At This Time

I was put on anti depressants again almost three weeks ago. I stopped drinking again almost six weeks ago. I am careful about watching my relationship with alcohol because my family has a history of alcoholism. But I really want to drink. Drinking lets me pause my mind. Or just lets me feel everything all [...]

Pressed Flowers

I sent her four pressed flowers. Three cherry blossoms and a daffodil, from the park where I watch the sun make its descent in the sky each evening. Spring hasn't graced her ecosystem yet, she is further north than I am. I worry that sending her this token of spring may have come too soon. [...]

Nobody Knows.

It is almost 2AM. I am now more than half way through my final undergraduate spring break. I have been working on my thesis, watching movies and listening to audio books (advice, self help audio books can be great but also can be very damaging if they are not taking into consideration things like LGBT [...]