Final Finals Season (For Now)

It has been like a whole ten days since my last post. Finals are always a weird time for me. I don't so much get stressed until the week everything is actually due. And even then it is not about the content just about if I actually have enough time to get what I need [...]

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Not One to Brag

Emotional vent blog, you've been warned. I have never been one to brag about getting good grades or assessments as they were called in my high school. I have always however been an excellent student. Growing up in a Montessori school, and then an essential school, we got personalized progress reports written by our teachers and mine [...]

Becoming Embodied

Everyone on instagram has been doing this 'post a photo from 7 years ago, 3 years ago, and this year' thing and I don't like posting those on insta or facebook because it feels tacky. I would usually post them on tumblr instead- somehow less tacky. So I decided to post it here. Here are [...]

Looking 13ack

I made it through the craziest party weekend of the year without drinking. I however also did not participate in any social activities. But see, I don't find joy in throwing colored dust at people just to take pictures and post on facebook. I also don't have fun jumping up and down in an overheated [...]

At This Time

I was put on anti depressants again almost three weeks ago. I stopped drinking again almost six weeks ago. I am careful about watching my relationship with alcohol because my family has a history of alcoholism. But I really want to drink. Drinking lets me pause my mind. Or just lets me feel everything all [...]

They, Them & Theirs.

Hi, my name is (irrelevant) and I use they/them/theirs pronouns. A lot of people like to say there is something political about identifying as gender non-binary or nonconforming but honestly, speaking for myself here, I am just trying to be myself. I tried being a woman. I succeeded, but I was devastatingly depressed to the [...]

I Forgot.

Last night I had people give me attention, and embrace me. I went to a college party stone cold sober and stayed that way for 2.5 hours before going home. Despite the moronic debauchery occurring in several overcrowded apartments, it was a refreshing evening. I will be inventing something called 'College Party Bingo' incase anyone is [...]