To have a better feel of the vibes I’m feeling listen to the Safe Haven album Ruth B. just released.
I am drunk.
I am sad. I am devastatingly sad. It is really very hard to be this sad all the time.
I have so much love in my heart. So much. But
But see the thing is people keep pushing me away and taking my love from me.
I am uncomfortable around people. I feel like a feral animal. I used to be domesticated but I have been out in the cold too long.
I went to a wedding today.
I was on a couch last night.
They had their head in my lap but it wasn’t them it was you.
I felt you next to me at the wedding, but you weren’t there.
I wanted to hold you, to dance with you.
But you weren’t there. You aren’t there.
You aren’t here.
And probably never will be.
Photo: something from the winter, NC 2017.